I am imaginative and dedicated. And if I say anything else I’ll start sounding excessively egotistical. Hopefully this blog does not turn into me stroking my ego for 4 paragraphs. It could. I will try not to.
That said, a healthy ego is pretty important for anyone to have. I consider myself to be a pretty realistic person, (a little doofy) but hardworking. I like myself and who I am, or at least, who I’m becoming because who knows what on earth I’m gonna be like in 4 years? I shudder to think!
(And by shudder I mean freely embrace age and the wisdom that comes with the many mistakes I shall undoubtedly make in the years to come. Oh yes.)
Which brings me to my next point.
I want to learn how to adapt. Right now, when I’m put in a situation I’m uncomfortable with I have a tendency to
A: Freeze up
B: Run away
C: Give up
Now, these are not good things. At all. I need to prepare and fail -spectacularly- so I can learn from my mistakes. I’ve said it a million times in these blogs but I’m gonna say it again; I’m here to learn every little inkling I can. Doing so requires a certain amount of willingness to accept ego bruising. Lots of ego bruising. Your-eyes-are-too-big bruising. I’m-not-so-fond-of-your-nose bruising. Did-you-know-that-your-left-foot-is-larger-than-your-right? bruising. The joys of working in a field that encourages bodily criticism! I have to be ready for it. I have to be stronger and keep my confidence and passion.
How to network, heck, how to COMMUNICATE, how to fundraise– those ideas are still pretty foreign to me. They can’t stay that way. Or rather, I won’t let them. I know SMU is good about teaching life skills, and hopefully will help me a lot with this.
I really am just excited to continue to figure stuff out. Hopefully I’ll learn a lot of new skills.