Action. Reaction. Nothing happens without cause. But what causes what? Chicken or the egg? Does time fly because you are enjoying yourself or are you enjoying yourself because time is flying? Man or myth? And in Soviet Russia, is it really the opposite? And if so, why? Why why why why why? The constant question with the ever-elusive response, that even if found leads only to more confusion. Why is a big question. In general. And even if narrowed only to encompass myself, still pretty huge.
I think it is very rare that anyone can have one single driving motive which influences any and all of their decisions. We all have numerous stimulus which we come into contact with at any one moment of the day, so for me to try to answer what my motivation is would depend greatly on the time in which the question was referring to, the weather, how much I had eaten for breakfast, whether I was wearing shoes or sandals etc. etc. etc.
Because of this inconsistency in regards to why I do certain things, I think it would be easier and perhaps even more relevant simply to answer WHAT I usually do in any given situation (or honestly, which probably anyone does in any given situation), which is to simply perform the action which I deem will have the highest positive effect on current and or future circumstances, while taking only enough time to do perform the action so as not to interrupt the circumstances just mentioned. B.O.R.I.N.G.
But seriously, is there any other way to adequately describe the thought process which goes into such an intricate thing as decision making. It’s so complex, what with having to consider context of situation, context of values, context of social norms, context of past experience and context of physiology and everything else, that wouldn’t time be better spent focusing on the what and how of whatever you’re doing (two much easier questions) and save yourself the time?
Arguments could certainly be made that knowing a person’s motivation can lead to a better understanding of how the thought process works and thus the easier manipulation of it in order to get the “most efficient” response possible. And all of that is fine and good. But knowing how the thought process works is not the same as understanding what the thought process is (the aforementioned why) and therefore only really scratches the surface as far as understanding true motivation.
Now, why do I bother saying all of this if it still leads to no definite answer as what motivation is to me personally? Perhaps it is because I simply don’t understand my own motivations and was trying to dizzy you with intellectual hoops to jump through, consequently distracting you from the fact that I never answered the intended question. Perhaps it is because I simply am annoyed by the question and rather than justifying its existence with a response, I am skirting around it in order to maintain the rebellious idea that “It’s my blog, I can write whatever I want!” Perhaps I am uncomfortable with sharing things about myself and therefore set the focus of this blog on the motivations of people in general rather than face the daunting task of talking about things in a more personal context. Or perhaps also, it is a mixture of all three.
Or even also, perhaps I am only writing what I am currently writing in this blog because it is like 2 o’ clock in the morning and I was either too tired to take the effort to come up with an adequate response which answered the question directly or to even realize until too late that I hadn’t really written anything about me at all and apparently WAY too tired to take the time to throw some punctuation in this paragraph .
Nothing happens without cause. And so I don’t end up causing myself to sleep through my first couple of classes tomorrow, I am going to go to sleep.