My assignment this week is to write about my values and which of them I value the most. I don’t even really know what that means. I guess I’m supposed to say something like “I’m humble and I think that really makes me a good person,” but saying things like that seems strange to me. I guess I can just list things that I like about myself, though. I think I’m able to work really well without outside pressure, and I think that sometimes I can even do better work without anyone trying to help me. Of course, that isn’t in every situation, only certain ones where people tend to just get in the way. I guess I should rephrase my initial thought to something like “I’m self motivated” to make it sound like I don’t crash under pressure. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. It all really depends on other pressures. I think that I’m also sometimes able to be as critical of myself as I am of others and their work. I don’t often get complacent about where I am in any activity; I usually try to move myself forward by questioning myself and my own actions a lot.
I guess something else that’s “valuable” about me is that I am studying both writing and playing music to the same degree right now. I guess that’s something that could potentially be “marketable,” as a lot of performers I know feel very disconnected with composers (especially when they write near impossible parts for their instrument). I would also say that my experience on instruments other than oboe is an asset, since I can to some degree be versatile as a performer.
That seems to be everything. bye