Everytime I hear the word skills, I think of Napoleon Dynamite. I can’t help it. I just see his face and hear “you gotta have mad skills, you know? bow hunting skills, nunchuck skills, computer hacking skills” and then I think… that is completely irrelevant to what I’m supposed to be talking about.
The blog topic for this week is skills, and to accurately assess myself I think is pretty difficult. I feel that collaborating with someone else to assess me would be more accurate. But, self assessment. Its something that I do every day. Not just in my major, or in Voice classes or in school in general. But with my friends and with my life as well. I want to be able to be completely happy with everything I do, every day. And, as morbid as it may sound, I want to be able to die right now and be completely pleased with how my life has been. So far I am. I am happy with the way I live my life, For how I serve the Lord, for how I treat people, for what my goals and ambitions are, and for how my lifestyle is. Everyone makes mistakes, especially me. But I have learned from the mistakes I have made, and plan to keep learning from the ones I will make in the future.
but as far as my personal skills go…
I am an imaginative person, I can come up with some pretty crazy ideas at a drop of a hat, and not all of them are realistic and usable, but it is fun to be able to create something that is interesting and unique to me, thats why I write and draw (privately), its another way of expression.
As far as being a skillful singer, I have SO much to learn. I am far from where I want to be. But, as I said in my other blogs, I don’t know if I will ever be where I want to be. I have a lucky four years to go with an amazing vocal coach and wonderful teachers, and can’t wait to see how I improve!
Flexibility. Most of the time I cater to other peoples schedules. I will bend over backwards to make something work. This can be a strength and a weakness, and I am not sure if it is a skill… Being flexible is good to an extent, but I need to work on not being so flexible that people can take advantage of me.
I am Extremely adaptable. I would say that this is definitely a skill I have. I have an easy going personality.I would be equally happy in cold weather as I am in hot weather. I love to ski, and I am very adventurous. I love camping, and I can spend hours swimming in the ocean. I know how to shoot a gun, and a bow and arrow, and how to use a pocket knife. I can sing well, act proficiently, and can dance (not like a dance major could, but I can get by). I can also get dressed up and know which fork to use at a Gala, or could carry on in a conversation with ease, and politesse. I hope this doesn’t sound arrogant or like I’m saying “look! I can do all these things!”. But, these are some things that my Dad reminds me of when I feel like I’m not good enough, and I think that these things are true, and that these things make me adaptable.
Collaboratively is something that I could definitely use a little more experience in. I feel that when I’m collaborating with others, It is my job to let them take the reigns and to do whatever is asked of me. As a result of this, I think that I sometimes fail to take charge when I should, or I don’t put in all of my ideas because I am afraid they will be stupid or dumb. Then I have to remind myself “there are no bad ideas, only ones which aren’t realistic” and the ones that aren’t realistic will be forgotten, or pieces of them can be used. Like while doing improv. for Piano, Professor Gunter always says that “There are no wrong answers, just unplanned harmonies”.
As far as being connected goes, I don’t know if I am old enough to have that yet. I feel that that comes with work experiences, and with networking, and things like that. I have a couple connections from back home, and SMU in itself is an amazing connection, but I haven’t really started “networking”. Honestly, I’m not sure how to even go about it. That is something that I will have to work on.
I have so many things to work on, and most of them are things that will not be improved quickly, but things that will improved over time. I am so thankful that I have these next 4 years to work on myself.