“We first make our habits and then our habits make us.”
–John Dryden, poet
Making a contribution, getting better, the challenge. I love playing on stage. The feeling after a great performance leaves me beaming. I feel like my purpose is to be the best musician I can be, and without practice, I know I won’t get any better. I want nothing more than to fulfill my potential, whatever that may be. In rehearsal today, Dr. Phillips said how practicing is more of a psychological thing; we have to have confidence in our work in order to accomplish the task. I had never thought about practice in this way, and it makes a lot of sense. Believing that you can do it is the first step.
As for distractions, my phone takes the top spot. It has the obvious -texting and talking, but apps are another time-waster. Instagram, twitter, Pinterest, and Facebook are apps that I’m constantly checking. Facebook on my computer is dangerous, too. I’ve self disciplined myself to the point where I can focus on homework or practicing without being tempted. It’s during my precious free time that I wish I spent more hours sleeping rather than browsing, haha.
I thank my parents and friends for giving me motivation in the past, but now that I’ve gotten older my drive for success has become completely self-motivated. I’ve raised higher standards for myself. The self-empowerment that is felt when you play a challenging piece perfectly (well, almost perfectly; there’s no such thing as a perfect performance 😉 ) is incomparable. I have yet to have the same accomplished feeling with anything else non-music related that I’ve done. I also want to make a difference in the world, and with music I will be able to do that. Becoming a better musician will open more opportunities for networking and employment.