I have always been the person to have a plan. After I was made aware of my love for theatre I knew that if I was to achieve anything with this career it was absolutely necessary for me to sketch out the rest of my life. While I was attending an arts elementary school, I knew what my next move would be, which was to apply and audition for an arts middle school. Right after I was accepted into the theatre department at that middle school, I started looking at high schools and came across Booker T. Washington High School for the Performing and Visual Arts. I made it my absolute goal to get into the theatre department at that performing arts school, and I did. And when I started looking at colleges all my plans reached a stop, which is only normal since we have thousands and thousands of colleges all over the country. But I started freaking out because I’ve always been the person with the plan. The person that tends to get whatever she puts her mind to. So not having a plan, or map to say the least, was absolutely terrifying. Then everything changed when I auditioned for Southern Methodist University. I knew I had found my dream college. Now things didn’t go according to plan the first time around because of financial reasons, but my love for this school was greater than any obstacle that was being placed in front of me during that period of time. So I planned to audition for the school the following year. I wasn’t going to give up on my dream, even though to be honest, I felt like giving up on this idea of “reaching your dreams” many times. This school was in my plans, on my map, imprinted in my heart and I wasn’t going to let it go. And so now I’m here and I am as happy as can be.
I know this blog is supposed to be about my future plans and goals, but I always find it helpful to look back at my older maps. They serve as a reminder of how far I have come in life. I find that to be quite encouraging. Especially, since at this point in my life, I find myself questioning everything. Sometimes I forget why I’m here, what I’m here for, and what I need to do in order to survive here. It might sound harsh but that is the way I am feeling at the moment. I do remain optimistic about my future though. I’m excited for whatever is to come my way and I am willing to accept it with open arms. Being in college I have realized, that most times than not, plans tend not turn out according to plan. At first, I found that frustrating and rather stalling to my career. Now I prefer not to make plans or goals. I feel like it closes me off to the many opportunities this university has to offer. Before college, I believed that it was an absolute necessity for me to be completely dedicated to acting and nothing more. Looking back now, I regret some of the decisions I made in high school to exempt myself from opportunities of crewing or designing costumes/sets. My plan isn’t to become a technician for shows or a costume designer, but I’ve discovered that it is something I enjoy doing. While being at SMU, I’ve discovered so much more about the world of theatre, which provides me with skills to better artist.
I know that it sounds like I don’t have a plan for the years to come, but I do it just isn’t formatted in the same manner as my past goals. For the next three and half years that I have left I plan to expand my horizons by taking classes that interest me, but are not always related to theater. I want to learn the most I can about the world I live in. I don’t want to be an actor that only knows how to act. I want to be an actor who has knowledge in subjects such as: history, psychology, science, religion, and even math (to a certain extent). After college, I see myself moving to cities like Chicago or New york City. I want to be apart of a team of artists who are passionate about creating original works, and exposing them to whomever is willing to listen. Beyond that, I don’t know what else I’d like to include into my future picture/path. I feel like I have so much to learn at this school, that making an absolute and definite plan right now, would be quite detrimental to my career and experience. I know that the classes I plan to take and the many projects I plan to take part in will provide me with the tools necessary to create a more clear plan for my future.